I at times believe myself to be arrogant in my manner.
Bear with me here, just for a bit.
It is a strange thought pattern that I seem to go through. I believe myself to be very caring, loving, compassionate, knowledgable about many things.
Not all things.
However, there are times, times when I am encountering a person who I am giving new information to, when my knowledge seems to border on arrogance. At least, that is what I feel like. Even when I am not intending to be arrogant, I think I appear to be that way.
Confidence at times appears like arrogance to me. Why???
Maybe, it is a reflection of my own lack of confidence on some level; because I am not fully confident in the information which I share, I feel like I am giving an air of arrogance as if I “know it all”.
Maybe it is because self-confidence is so misrepresented at times by persons in our culture; to be self-confident is to be self-absorbed, self-righteous, self-serving.
I don’t believe myself to be any of those things. At least, I think I don’t believe it.
What I have come to understand about persons that I have surrounded myself with in the past, is that, it can be very intimidating for someone to be around a person who exudes an air of confidence. The air of feeling very sure of herself, carrying herself in an upright, determined way, setting her sights on horizons that she is interested in.
What could be wrong with that?
As with so many things, things that bug us about other people are those things, or aspects, that we most loathe in ourselves. I find it to be so true of human nature. I am a confident person, so that means that those that have confidence issues, struggle with who I am. So, either they decide they no longer can be around me (although won’t tell me that), or they treat me like total crap.
What a drag…….
And, if I state openly and assertively that I am confident, that I am working hard to achieve my goals, that I willingly go after things that I want, I appear to be bragging to others.
Tell me, isn’t it a good thing if a person feels their own self-worth? Besides serving others, isn’t that what this world is all about? Realizing the gem that we know as our true self??
It is one of those mysteries. One of those human conditions that still needs to be explored.
I am confident. I am on my true path. I feel great about those aspects of my self.