What if today was your last day, here on earth?
The thought itself brings a feeling of fear right to the pit of my stomach. However, I think about it to gauge my life as it is, and if I am living it, embracing it, throwing myself into it, to the extend that I want to.
If today were your last day here, what would you be taking with you?
Regret? For the dreams that you left unfulfilled, because you were afraid, alone, or insecure about how to make them happen? Regret for never having told that one person how much you truly loved them? Regret for not having quit the job that you have been doing for years, just because it was “safe”, but it was slowly killing your soul?
Would you have anger or resentment? Bearing ill feelings over harsh words said, or heard, from another? Would any of those that you have in your life be left behind, not sure how you really felt about them because of a past conflict? Is anything left undone, resolved?
Would you leave lonely? Lonely because you were afraid to connect with others, thought for sure someone would not have time for you, afraid to just call up and go for coffee? Were you stuck in doing things in your life the same old way, not exploring new avenues, new relationships, new ways to connect with others? Were you estranged from friends and family?
Would you be disappointed? Let down because of all of the things in this life you said you would do “someday”, which there are no more of? A bucket list left unfulfilled? Were there a host of reasons why you never took that trip, went out on that date, read that book, studied that philosophy, or climbed that mountain?
It might be easy for me to say what I would do if today were my last, since for today, that isn’t my reality. However, I like to think that if today were truly my last day here on this earth, that up to this moment, I will have lived my life fully and openly enough, that I would have no regrets. I have done so many things so far that I drempt of doing, from working at the college that I attended; to obtaining my Master’s degree, to having a child and a family. I have travelled, I have seen Disney world, I have been on a plane and a train. I have so many things yet that I want to do, but I will not feel I leave behind a life that has been unlived.
Resentment? Nope. I have no time in my life for resentment. And, the more days that pass for me, the more that I have a deeper understanding of the persons in my life, and why they are in it. Those that I love may be here with me for a reason, a season, or a lifetime, but no matter what, I will leave this earth knowing that I did all within my power to build relationships, or, let them go.
Loneliness? I make it my business to surround myself with persons who bring me joy, and energize me. I never feel lonely; or rather, I am never alone unless I choose to be. And even then, being alone isn’t lonely, it is being with my self. I am fully one with my family, friends, and the world. I am never lonely.
Disappointed? IMPOSSIBLE!!!! In every breath, in every moment of my life, there is so much wonder and joy and magic! Sure, there are many places, people, and things that I want to see and to do before my time is up in this world, however, I have done, seen and encountered so much in the millions of moments that I have existed. There is magic, right now as I draw my breath, that wasn’t there a moment ago. There is opportunity waiting for me when the sun shows itself in a few moments, and when I take my next sip of coffee. My life is a constant source of motion and evolution, and it would be impossible for me, right now, to be disappointed. My life is unique and priceless.
So, what if today were your last? Make today as if it were, and get to the business of truly living it.