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Notice the Fireflies.



I recently began as a volunteer with my local hospice organization. Persons that are referred for hospice services are presumed to have six months or less to live. Hospice services assist with their medical needs, social work needs, or provide companionship and emotional support. My interest in becoming involved with hospice is my own interest in death, dying, and assisting those that are close to death in making their transition. I will be a guardian angel for them, sitting vigil in the last few hours and days of breath. It is not a career, as much as it is an inspired calling for me right now. 


With the training that I received this week, and meeting the first person that I have been paired with, I feel completely at ease being where I am. And, I find myself being even more acutely aware of the present moment, and the importance of that. You see, the present moment is all that we ever have, even though it feels like our lives are based on past and future the majority of the time. The truth is, the past is merely a memory trace, and the future is just an anticipated outcome, that may or may not come to be.  Yet, that is often how we define ourselves and establish our identity in the world. 


For persons that are dying, especially those that are actively dying at a relatively young age, there is no more planning for far into the future; the reality is, that they have fewer breaths remaining than they had planned on or hoped for. So, presence of what is in their now, and appreciating everything that they have in their lives becomes of more critical importance. However, it is a reminder that could serve all of us in a meaningful way. 


I read, listen to, and remind myself daily of the importance of present moment awareness, in accepting things as they are, and choosing peace over conflict, judgment, regret or anticipation. It takes daily reminding for me to remember the importance of it, believe me. Yet, I am amazed at the details that I get to immerse myself in when I pause long enough from my agenda ridden life, and pay attention to what is happening right now.  


Gift yourself with the celebration of the present moment. Enjoy the symphony of birds in the morning as you awaken. Watch the puffy, changing clouds from your car on your drive to work. Breathe deeply in between the bites of your meal. And, don’t forget to notice the fireflies that glow with such mystery in your backyard. The moments deserve our full attention. 




Beyond the Impulse.

I have been creating a new kind of happy in my life lately. In the midst of weather woes, health issues, and family needs, I have been finding more peace and contentment than I think that I have ever known. In my whole life.

This has come about for many deep reasons, but it all really comes down to one, simple thing: I have been living my life beyond the impulse.

I love to be impulsive, like get up and go somewhere that I hadn’t planned on. Buying myself something special that I really want. Writing to or calling someone out of the blue. But, there is something interesting that I have been discovering about me and impulse.

When I am impulsive, I tend to act without fully considering my choice. It doesn’t make all of my choices wrong choices; but it really means that at times, I have been not fully present to the choice that I was making. If I wanted a drink, or three, I would have them, simply because the impulse was striking me. If I wanted to eat junk food because I was upset or depressed, I would allow myself that. If I wanted to spend money, lots of it at times, on something that wasn’t planned, I would do it.

And then, the guilt would often set in. Moments, hours, days after I would make the choice, I would feel massive amounts of guilt for choosing something that I wished, after all, I hadn’t. Or, that I at least had thought more deeply about. So, even if it was a sound, good choice, the guilt would shadow any perspective that I might have had about it.

What I have been doing now, in the last couple of weeks, is getting more acutely present to my life than I have ever been. I breathe through the moments, if they are difficult ones, and remember that they are part of the mosaic of my life as much as the joys. When I want wine, or dessert, or an extra hour of sleep, I breathe through that too, just to ensure that my decision is based on me being in my life, right then and there, rather than because there is something that feels urgent, pressing, or uncomfortable so I need to numb it in some way.

And, the beauty of it all is, that when I am present to every decision that I make, there is no room for guilt. It doesn’t mean that I won’t make choices that end up not working well for me; or that I might not have regret for choosing something, or not. It just means that my actions are fully thoughtful, I am embracing the process as well as the result, and I get to own fully what I choose.

To me, when I cater to my impulse, I miss an opportunity to really be in the moments of my life. And, the moments of this life ARE my life itself.


You are complete……….

How often is in our lives, that we feel like only part of who have yet to become.  That we feel like we are not yet complete, that we are missing part of ourselves.  That there are things missing; like we are someone how flawed and an unfinished work. 

I think that thinking is flawed thinking.

I don’t think that we are incomplete at all.  I think in each day, each moment of our existence, we are as complete as we are meant to be in that moment.  Where are feet are planted, where we are standing right now, right at this very moment, is where we are meant to be, and we are fully WHO we are meant to be as well.

I mean, think about it for a moment.  And, as you are thinking about it, try to think about it objectively and rationally.  Do you really believe that whatever tools or skills that you possess today, are half or a quarter of what you really need?  I mean, you are functioning right now today most likely as a student, or an employee.  You are a parent, a child, and a sibling.  You are a neighbor, a home owner, a taxpayer.  You put your kids on the bus, drive your car, listen to the problems of your family and friends.  And, in all of those roles, even when we don’t feel like we are fully present, we are able to fulfill those roles.  Maybe we don’t think we are doing the best job, but we are doing the job. 

On any given day, I truly believe that we are doing the best that we can, in the circumstances and life events that we find ourselves in.  We possess certain skills, knowledge, and life experience that allow us to make the most informed choices that we are able to in that moment.  In the next moment, we will have a bit more knowledge and information that will assist us.  Whether we feel open to our lives, open to the Universe that feeds us, or not, we gain information, even when we are not looking for it.

But, just imagine when we are actually open to our lives evolving.  When we welcome that information, that new knowledge, when those life lessons that come our way are an excitement for us, something that we look forward to?  Life is always going to come our way, and it is even going to bring things to us that are tragic, or disturbing or frightening.  Still, being open to whatever it is that life brings our way, makes what we gain from it in terms of new information almost limitless.

We are complete, right now on this day, as we are also evolving.  That which seems like a contradiction is actually a dance of cooperative energies:  we have all that we need in this moment in order to be present in the moment; and in addition, what we gain in that moment as knowledge of the universe helps us to evolve to whereever we are to go next.  As each sun sets and prepares for its new dawn, we are wiser, stronger, more learned about what what lies ahead. 

Even when we don’t know it.